Alone...

Tick Tock, Tick Tock…
The living room clock resonates through the night…
As I sit here thinking, and conclude that my mind’s not right.

I imagine a pair of strong arms holding me tight,
Yet miles upon miles away, my husband is working with all of his might.

Another thought comes, and I ponder…
If I’d made the right decision would things have come to pass…
Or would a little longer my mother’s life had last?

Chasing away those thoughts before I cry
I think of yet another who never said goodbye…

Counting my blessings of which I have many,
And the future looks to have plenty…
Yet the past is hard to leave behind
Even though it hasn’t been so kind…

How do I move forward on my own?
With these feelings of being all alone?

Yet through this all, let it be known…
That my husband will one day be home…

Another best friend I will one day meet,
Though what I lost it will never replace…
And while my mother’s heart may never again beet,
In the spirit world we may one day embrace.

So while I may currently feel lost,
And motivation, I cannot find…
Sooner or later my loneliness will exhaust
And everything in life will be realigned.