I Give Up...

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This is the second time I’ve had that thought this week… 

 

I give up…

 

“God doesn’t give you anything you can’t handle,” blah blah blah blah blah blitty blah…

 

Yeah yeah, whatever.  It looks like he also doesn’t give you anything to help you through it, either.  You have to deal with what you’ve already got to get it done…

 

Or at least, that’s how I feel at the moment. 

 

Will I get through it…  yeah, of course, I always do…

 

In the meantime, however…  I’m stressed, I’m tired…  I’m sick of being sick and tired…  I just want to say fuck it and give up. 

 

Problem is, when I did that earlier this week, I didn’t have competent help to take over, so I had to do it all anyway. 

 

I need a long vacation…  or an escape from reality…  neither of which is likely to happen…  so for now, I’m screwed…  I have to sit back and wait for this storm to pass…  the problem is, when I think I see the end of it, everything gets worse again. 

 

Some Help, please???  I’m sick of being “strong.”  Even strong people have a breaking point and mine keeps been hit, over and over and over and over…

 

But apparently, I’m not alone…  people have it worse then me…  After all, I still have a car (for now), my house hasn’t been taken (yet), I have food to eat (for a few days at least), we have running water (for about a week).

 

Am I overreacting?  Probably…  I know Adam’s paycheck will pay for the car and the water and I can go shopping probably by Wednesday…  however, right now I’m still in the bottom of this hole that we have gotten in and all I’m seeing is darkness…  the light is short lived and it’s warmth isn’t reaching me yet.

 

That being said… 

 

I was planning on writing a Valentine’s day fanfic for Yuri on Ice…  along with a White Day follow up…  but as you can see I’ve been distracted.  I lost the tablet that I started writing it on.  I don’t know if I should even try to continue it…  Valentine’s day is over and White day is 3 days away…

 

I have been writing, some…  but it’s nothing that I can share, here… 

 

While I don’t have lesson plans to do this weekend, I do have to edit the ones that I already did for this month… 

 

… yeah, there’s stuff that I need to do, however I don’t want to do any of it…

 

Anyway…  thought I should give ya’ll a heads up and apologize for not fulfilling my promise from my previous entry, which was supposed to have been the Valentine’s day fanfic… 

 

Ja matane…





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You're right even strong people have a breaking point.  And actually is is very healthy to break down because keeping things inside us harm us more than anything. Just quit trying to keep it in...and if you feel like crying do it because you'll feel so much lighter afterwards. It is just not written anywhere that some people have to stay strong always and must never break... we're all human. As humans we have feelings and attachments and thus breaking down, being weak, being strong is all a part of being human...that's how we are complete.
So stay strong but if you need to break down then do it because emotionally and physically it is healthy for you. 
I'm not sure why you are in the situation you are in or how as I just got to your page today.... I'm not sure what I can do to help either.
If you need to talk though I'm here. Just send a note or id you want we can chat else where.
Sending strong, bright, happy, and healing vibes your way as you need them most right now.